i realise this is what i do every night. take out paper,draw,sleep. i looked through my papers and they are all filled with one word.love.wrote in cursive. i looked through my drawing book and found cartoon drawings. maybe going back to drawing and shutting urself up would be so much better than to say it to the outside world. at least u would know they would not care for you and at least u know that even if u like a person, he/she would not care. because you're nothing. mellissa, you're nothing.